Desperate Housewife

One of the reasons my relationships have broken down in the past is because of my stubborn need for Independence - financially, emotionally, physically and time wise. But I really want a man who can take control, who can be masterful and dominant. I'm driven, motivated and so in control of my own life that I don't want to be like that in a relationship all the time.

Sometimes I dream of being a housewife. I would approach my duties with the same relish and commitment I do my job. Half my mind is in the 1950's. I'd cook some fabulous evening meal in my rockability dress after spending the afternoon in a hair salon having my raven haired locks teased into romantic curls. I'd bring up 2.4 beautiful children and "swoon" as my gorgeous, bread winning husband returns from the office and calls out "Honey, I'm home!" I guess the only reference to the 50's in a modern day equivalent would be pastel coloured Smeg fridge freezer.

But the inner cynic would never let me be a housewife. My instinct for self preservation is too strong. I could never be dependent on a man financially - what happens if you get divorced? After all, lets be realistic. Men are allowed to get old, and many look good doing it (think George Clooney and Brad Pitt) but ageing and women are two things that aren't allowed to sit at the same table. We get old, then we get replaced and then we have to start over. I'll stick to working my arse off, I like it, plus no one can complain about how much I shop.